Unemployed

Unemployed and not loving it
The way everyone wants to believe
I'm leaking pride, seeping sanity
Sips of milk are calculated
Today I ate a dollar-fifty worth of grapefruits
and 69 cents of tuna straight from the can
I take myself on longer and longer walks
Stopping on the bridge
Where I really think things through
But always find myself home
Wondering just how long I can keep this going
I'd scream and shout and tear shit up
But this would only anger my neighbors
"There goes that unemployed asshole,"
they'd say,
“Whoopin' it up
Havin' the goddamn time of his life
While the rest of us gotta toil.”